- i'm a grumpy motherfucker -

Well actually not so much today as I was yesterday, but still, I've been better. Yesterday was the first day of class, and things seemed pretty annoying. Latin class was really crowded (there are about 25 students taking it, and two sections of class available: there were 20 people in the section I am in, and 5 in the other section), my Math lecture was just plain boring, and Chemistry seems like it's going to be hard. There was a quiz in the recitation yesterday to see if everyone was ready for the class, and I had never heard any of the crap on it. But I think only about half the class has had Chem before, so I'm probably not the only dummy in there at the moment.

I went to the bookstore and spent $165 for a couple books.... I didn't buy the Chemistry book yet because they only had it new and it was $175. So I'm going to try and find it used somewhere so I can have a little bit of money left for food..... Yes, it looks like if I want to keep on eating and paying my bills I'm going to have to get a job this quarter. Paying the bills has drained my bank account faster than I thought it was. Even without spending money on cigarettes.... which is another thing.

When I decided to quit again I had 6 of the step 2 patches left from last time I quit... so I used them, and I took the last one off Sunday, planning on going to the store and getting more. But since I'm incredibly lazy and didn't want to go to the store and spend money on them, I decided to see how long I could last without them and if it got bad I would go get some. So I've been cigarette AND patch-free for the past 2 days, which is annoying as fuck. It's only mildly annoying at home, but I definitely think about it more often than I would were I wearing a patch, but at school it's awful. I see other people smoking everywhere, and I can smell it, and I'm walking around outside a lot trying to kill time between classes, and it seems like everything is making me want to smoke. Not that I think I'm going to, but it just makes for a very grumpy Goob.

Anyways... today is a little better. Some of the people in Latin switched to the other section, so now it's a little less crowded (even though I'm mostly with students from the other section last quarter and don't know anyone... and it's the same teacher they had last quarter, so she knows them and they know her and everything), my math recitation was fine, even though still a little boring, it has a cool Chinese TA teaching it. I like Chinese people, they're funny.... I don't know why.... Now I'm sitting here on a two and a half hour break until my Chemistry lecture. Hopefully I'll get a better idea of what the class will be like from that.... I need to go check out some of the off-campus bookstores and see if I can find a used copy of my book. Of course it'll still probably be like $135, so I'm going to feel awful spending that much money on a damn book that I'll only have for about 10 weeks... goddamn ripoff, I hate buying books - it's completely ridiculous.

I'm sure I could find more to bitch about, but I don't really feel like it at the moment. I wish I had something fun and happy to talk about, but I don't. I got a really good documentary on DVD the other day, that made me happy..... (i bought it before i remembered that a new quarter means spending hundreds of dollars on books....) it's about Tigers - but not just a boring documentary about wild tigers - it's about some guys teaching some captive-born tigers how to hunt on their own in Africa. It's good.... very cool stuff....

Alright, I'll leave you alone now... I have to find something more time consuming to do anyways.... still have over an hour and a half..... Ok. Go 'way now.  i posted this at 10:38 AM ---